May 2013
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Game where I always lose (Part 2)
Just last May 21-22, I’ve been together with Athena, my cousin and my gay friend to attend a certain training for camps. Out of so much excitement I wasn’t able to sleep well the night of 20th because of thinking what to wear, what to say when we meet. Yeah, I kept on imagining those things. To make the story short I was sleepless and unready before we meet the next day.
21st...
I (don't) understand.
Nilalayuan ako ng mga tao? Fine with me. I’m used to it.
I’m okay.
Hindi ako bitter. I just wanted to know why. I just want them to clear my mind about why are they doing this. Alam ko namang I have many unlikeable traits in me but seriously, please make me realize it all.
Really, I feel bad.
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Just today
Hallo! I just came home from school and I’m really really sleepy right at this moment but there’s something I really want to write before I take a nap.
That feeling, when a person suddenly replies to your messages awkwardly. I mean, before we were talking as much as we wanted about stuffs and yeah, I can say we’re that close. But this day really pisses me off. I’m on my...
SNSD will perform 'I Got A Boy' & 'Gee' at 'Music...
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Game where I always lose
I talked to my best friend about this girl I met in camp. He was actually happy for me that I come to move on from the hurt I felt in my previous relationship but there was one thing he said to me that bothered me all night.
The story is that, this girl (let’s just call her Athena), is a bit clingy yet so sweet to everyone. I always watch her from afar during the camp and patiently waits...
Butterflies?
So now I just got home from a three-day camp. To make the story short, I met a girl (who is my co-camper) and was pretty amazed about how she is. At first I really felt nothing but admiration because she’s beautiful and talented. We were not close until activities are held and we get to talk to each other often. As hours go by, I didn’t notice the butterflies grow on my stomach to the...
Today I just feel nothing but disgust to myself.
Am I that easy that she even took advantage of that moment of ours together? I feel like a shit being used by people for their own satisfaction. I’m disgusted with myself. Yes. Literally.
5/3/2013
1:02p.m
To: Mom and Dad
From: Me
Hi Mom, I’m happy that you talked to me again although it’s a confrontation of both you, and dad. I’m a bad person, a heartless daughter, a wicked sister and a worthless friend. That’s what I am, because you keep on asking me that question; “Who are you now?” “We do not know you anymore.” I’m still the same, mom. The only thing that’s changed is...
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ok so now i feel like a kid crying over a bully who just wasted me with his words. i’m trying to be invulnerable to anyone who pisses me off. it’s effective! you see i don’t usually get hurt to whatever you say but hey it’s a whole lot different if it comes from your mom and brother’s mouth. I literally feel like SHIT. yeah dumbass. i just don’t have a real...
Never trust happiness
April 2013
61 posts
Now I choose people whom I should trust.
It’s better to be surprised than to be disappointed.
I have a thing for people who can sing well in acoustic. I don’t know haha
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No escape from death
Love is a very deep trap. Once you fall in love, you die slowly. It’s pretty unpredictable of how love moves these days. I once loved a person and I happen to experience to be blinded by it. Too blind to see myself that it’s killing me softly. ‘Nagmahal lang naman ako’ was my defense mechanism. I don’t actually know when it started but after a year, I can’t...
I will be looking for a place for me. Right where I deserve to be. Not with you,...
My cutie bunnyyy~
sniffingstardusts:
Jessicaaaa :”)
One moment, you’re there to make me feel special. Next second, you...
– why……
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Feels
Ang hirap pala pag galing ka sa break up. Sobrang daming nararamdamang hindi naman dapat. Sawi ka na nga, lalo ka pag nasasawi. Yung feeling mo Sobrang pathetic mo na. I’m happy that they are around. Kaso iba yung interpretation ko minsan eh. I’m prone to misunderstandings. Sana i-consider nila yon. And don’t blame me if I misjudged their actions.
Maybe I’m confused when you are near me. I don’t know what to do or...
– :)
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