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Nilalayuan ako ng mga tao? Fine with me. I’m used to it.
Hindi ako bitter. I just wanted to know why. I just want them to clear my mind about why are they doing this. Alam ko namang I have many unlikeable traits in me but seriously, please make me realize it all.
Really, I feel bad.
Hallo! I just came home from school and I’m really really sleepy right at this moment but there’s something I really want to write before I take a nap.
That feeling, when a person suddenly replies to your messages awkwardly. I mean, before we were talking as much as we wanted about stuffs and yeah, I can say we’re that close. But this day really pisses me off. I’m on my way home this afternoon and I was texting her about things like what am I doing or what does the people around me looks like and all she replied to me were ‘yeah?’ ‘ah, okay’ ‘really?’ ‘I guess so’.
WHAT THE FUCK.
I am not mad. I just hate the feeling of being hated but still you keep on talking to me that way. Seriously, if you have any problems with me, just tell me. I won’t get offended as long as it is true but really, I hate that. I’m sorry that I suddenly didn’t reply but I tell you, you made me feel shit.
I talked to my best friend about this girl I met in camp. He was actually happy for me that I come to move on from the hurt I felt in my previous relationship but there was one thing he said to me that bothered me all night.
The story is that, this girl (let’s just call her Athena), is a bit clingy yet so sweet to everyone. I always watch her from afar during the camp and patiently waits for her to give that cute smile. Last saturday night, together with our one gay friend, we were on a room fixing our selves for the intermission numbers. Athena liked to straighten up her hair so I did the job and she looked beautiful, really. Well I’m just fascinated at that time. But a phone call broke that moment. And since her phone is close to where I am sitting, I saw the name of the caller. ‘Honeyco’. I didn’t felt anything since I don’t like her that much at that time so I just let it go. It just gave me the fact that maybe this girl doesn’t want to talk about boyfriends.
When we were sitting at the stairs before the night starts, my cousin’s boyfriend visited her during the camp. From there, Athena was asking me if I had boyfriends so I think I denied it. So I found the perfect opportunity to ask her if she have a boyfriend. Without any hesitation she answered a ‘No’. In short, those two incidents kept me in wonder who that mysterious caller is.
We happen to stay on the stage because we need to find a song so we were together in front of the laptop (the laptop is fucking lagging so it made our time together, longer.). While waiting she asks random questions like, where do I live, where am I studying, and how old am I. Yes, we just met so I do not know those basic facts about her and vice versa.
I answered the first question, “Road 24, Cogeo Village ako eh. Ikaw?”
Then she spoke, “Jan lang sa may Steelhomes.”
“Ah ang layo mo pala samin, isang tricycle pa.”
“Edi dadalawin na lang kita, joke.”
Holy gracious…Can you just make it serious?
Next morning, I was too tired and I don’t want to speak to anyone since my throat hurts. I came to look for her and watch her from afar again. While looking at her it seems that she’s a bit sad and yeah, I watched her for hours but I can count with my fingers how many smiles she had given.
During lunch time, she was sitting alone at the stairs so I found the opportunity to sit beside her and talk. “Hay, nakakapagod, gusto ko na umuwi” were my words as I sat beside her. She smiled! Finally those cute eyes I loved to see. She answered me with this. “Hi Ate Pam, I miss you!” The butterflies grew once more. I told her, “Kagabi lang tayo magkasama tapos na-miss mo ako agad?” Then I laughed, and she laughed with me as well. We talked and we were together, just the two of us wandering in the camp site until afternoon.
When our gay friend came to talk about something with us (he’s fond of rumors so yeah it’s just rumors), I happen to hug him (the gay friend) from his back and I wrapped my arms around his neck while he was stating the story. That’s just normal since we are friends and everyone in the camp does that. But hell, Athena interrupted him and said, “Nakakaselos naman yan.”
Ok. Kill me now.
I told this all to my best friend. But I never came to think that one thing he told me. Seriously, I think I’m over infatuated again. I hate myself for being too easy.
He told me, “Baka bi-sexual din yan.”
“At ginagamit ka lang just because nasa camp kayo at malayo sila ng girlfriend niya sa isa’t-isa”
When I first heard it, I don’t mind. That’s because I think I like her. But really, what am I feeling? Since I came from a break-up, hindi ko na ma-distinguish yung nararamdaman ko. And I fucking hate it.
Please Athena just talk to me. I want to know what’s with you that made me like this.
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